A World Turned Upside Down

Prudence smoothed the scrap of muslin on her lap and studied the uneven lines of irregular stitches. Practice was supposed to improve her skills, but each successive row looked worse than the one before.

With a sigh, she slid the needle off the thread and began using it to pull out her handiwork. Where in the Good Book did it say that women must stitch every day?, she wondered.

Then, yanking a stitch to punctuate every word, “Surely God would not be disappointed that Prudence Fayreweather of tiny New Eden, New Hampshire, cannot stitch.”

Oh, no. Had she spoken aloud?

She sat churchly still. Papa and Jeremiah had taken the cows to graze on the common. They would not return until dinner. But Mama? Prudence closed her eyes and listened. She could just hear the faint clacking of the butter churn.

Her exhale of relief was quickly followed by a sideways glance at the back door. What were the chickens doing? Surely they had something more interesting to do than stitch.

She shifted her glance toward the front of the house. Mama would be busy churning for a while. She would never notice if her daughter took a short break to play with her feathered friends.

Prudence stuck the needle in the cloth and shoved the muslin off her lap before hopping off the chair. She paused at the door to listen one more time for her mother. Then she pushed the door open and darted outside—

—and stopped.

The sky in the near distance was yellow.

Prudence blinked. She squinted. She rubbed her eyes. The sky was still yellow. And the yellow was spreading, toward her, toward the village.

“MAMA!” Prudence ran to the front of the house.  “Mama! Come look!”

Mama stood, wiping her hands on her apron. “Prudence Fayreweather! Running wildly is not suitable for a young Christian woman.”

“But Mama—“

Mrs. Fayreweather set her hands on her hips. “How many times have we discussed this?” She shook her head before continuing. “Please go back to the corner of the house, walk to me calmly, and explain why you are not practicing your stitching.”

“Bu—“

Mama pointed over Prudence’s shoulder.

Gritting her teeth, Prudence turned and hurried to the corner and back. “My stitches were getting sloppy,” she explained upon rejoining her mother. “I went outside to calm my mind, but then I saw the sky turning yellow.”

Mrs. Fayreweather sighed. “You have a fanciful imagination. I wish I knew what to do with it.”

“’Tis not—“ Prudence grabbed her mother’s hand and pulled her to the side of the house. She pointed at the sky. “It is not my imagination.”

Mama caught her breath. “My word.”

“What is it?”

“I have no idea. It looks like—”

“Like what?”

Mama shook her head. “Nothing. That would be mindless speculation.” Mama clapped her hands. “Now, let us get back to our chores. They won’t do themselves, no matter what color the sky is.”  She put her hand on Prudence’s shoulder and guided the girl to the front of the house, but not before Prudence saw her mother glance worriedly back over her shoulder. 

Prudence let herself be led into the house and then scurried to the window by the rear door. No matter what Mama said, something was very wrong.

She watched the sky grow darker and darker.

 

The sky was grayish-brown when Papa and Jeremiah returned. Prudence stood with Mama in the yard, watching as they guided the cows toward the barn. Judging by the moos and lows, the cows were as worried and confused as Prudence.

Movement to her right caught Pru’s attention. “Mama, look.” She pointed at the chickens, who were lining up to get back into the coop, something they only did at night.

“They’re probably confused by the darkening sky,” Mama said. “‘Tis nothing to worry about.” Mama rubbed her collarbone that certain way, and Prudence knew her mother’s words were a lie.

Once the animals were put to bed, the family followed Papa into the house. Mama lit the candles in the kitchen, and everyone took their places around the table: Papa at the head, Mama opposite him, Jeremiah on Papa’s right, Prudence on Papa’s left. No one looked out the windows, but their thoughts remained on the growing darkness.

Jeremiah turned to his father. “What is it, Pa? Could it be the war?”

Mr. Fayreweather shook his head. “I don’t think so. The last I heard, the fighting was all down by New York and in the Carolinas. Unless…”

Prudence peered at her father. “Unless what?”

Papa shared a look with Mama and then sighed before answering. “Unless we are being punished by the Lord.”

“For what?” Jeremiah cried. “We have every right to rebel against the king. He denied and trampled on our God-given rights. If anything, the Lord should be punishing him, not us.”

 “Calm down, young man.” Papa’s voice was stern but gentle. “I’m not saying you’re wrong. You know I support independence. But there are many reasons the Lord could visit his wrath upon us. The war is the least of them. After all, the Bible tells us we are beings of sin. Perhaps we have not atoned enough for our transgressions.”

“Darkness was one of the plagues of Egypt,” Prudence chimed in.

“Yes, it was,” Jeremiah agreed. “Sent to persuade pharaoh to set the Hebrews free. Maybe this darkness is a plague on the British, to persuade the king to set us free.”

“But shouldn’t the darkness fall on London, then, instead of New Eden?” Prudence asked. 

 “I suppose,” Jeremiah sighed. “Maybe we are being punished after all.”

The family fell silent. Prudence felt a knot form in her belly. This was her fault. She had broken the sixth commandment. She had disobeyed her mother. She had believed that God would not give a thought to Prudence Fayreweather’s frivolity. She was wrong. She folded her hands together, closed her eyes, and whispered the Lord’s Prayer. She hoped that would be enough. 

Papa waited until she was finished before setting his hands palm-down on the table and announcing he was hungry. “It is midday. Let’s have dinner.” He nodded at Mama. While she made her way to the sideboard, Papa turned to Prudence. “Perhaps you could help your mother by setting out the plates?”

Prudence nodded before getting up and sliding behind her father to the cabinet.

Papa then looked at Jeremiah. “And perhaps you can fetch more candles. I suspect these will not be enough to last us through the night.”

Prudence glanced out the window as her brother walked past it. It did look like night outside, except no stars were visible. She reminded herself it was the middle of the day, not the middle of the night. If it was this dark now, what would it be like later? What if the sun never shone again? Prudence knew they did not have enough candles to survive that. No one did.

 

By the time Jeremiah returned with the half-dozen candles that normally resided in other rooms of the house, Mama had laid out the midday meal: bread, cheese, and pickles.  Jeremiah set the candles on the sideboard before sliding back into his seat. At Papa’s nod, they all bowed their heads and said grace. For once, Jeremiah did not lunge for the bread at the final syllable in amen, waiting instead for Papa to take the first portion.

“Well?” Papa glanced around the table. “The food won’t eat itself. Best help yourself.”

At this cue, the rest of the Fayreweathers slowly filled their plates.

The first bite of bread felt dry in Prudence’s mouth and like a pebble going down her throat. Every bite grew worse, until she felt like she was choking down stones.

She watched each family member take their next bite and then looked down at her own plate. “It’s my fault.”

“What was that?” Mama asked. “Speak louder if you wish to be heard.”

Prudence pushed her plate away. “I said, it’s my fault.”

“What’s your fault?” Jeremiah asked through stuffed cheeks.

Mama slapped his arm. “Do not speak with your mouth full, young man.” She turned to Prudence. “But he asked an appropriate question. What is your fault?”

“This. The darkness. The Lord sent it to punish me.”

Mama gave Papa a pointed stare.

“Why would He punish you?” he asked.

“Because . . . because I broke the commandments. I cannot stitch. I disobeyed Mama. I envied the chickens—“

Jeremiah guffawed. Papa bit his cheek. Mama sent Papa a look of disapproval and gave Jeremiah another slap on the arm. Prudence let her tears flow.

After a nod from Mama, Papa grabbed one of the candles and pushed another toward his daughter. “Prudence, help me check on the animals.”

With a sniffle, Prudence pushed back her chair, took the candle, and followed her father out the back door. Papa stopped when they were clear of the building. “You are most certainly a headstrong young woman, but I do not believe the Lord did all this,” he said, waving his free hand toward the sky, “because of you. You are one of many.”

“But God sent disasters to punish individuals all the time in the Old Testament. Look what happened to Dathan, Abiram, and Korach.”

“Those men rebelled against Moses. You are not rebelling against anyone, except maybe your mother.”

Prudence wiped her cheeks with her sleeve, hiding a small smile.

“Beside,” Papa continued, “the Old Testament is full of strong women. What about Miriam, Ruth, and Esther?”

Prudence answered with a shrug and then walked with Papa to the barn, where almost half the cows were lying down. Two that Prudence checked on seemed to have fallen asleep, if their breathing was any indication.

Assured that the animals, at least, were taking the strange darkness in stride, the two Fayreweathers walked back to the house. They found Mama and Jeremiah in the sitting room, Mama reading the Bible by candlelight, Jeremiah on the floor by her feet. Prudence sat next to Jeremiah, and Papa took his chair. While Mama read Luke’s account of the Last Supper, Prudence drifted into a light, restless sleep.

She woke in darkness, to a dull pain in her legs.

Jeremiah gave her another kick and then spoke in a loud whisper, pointing at the window. “Look!”

Prudence walked on her knees to the pane. She gasped at the sight. There were stars in the sky! The Lord had restored the natural order.

She stood, kissed her mother on the cheek, and made her way to her own bedroom, where she kneeled by her bed and prayed her most fervent thanks. The next morning, she reached for her stitching without complaint.

 

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The Dinner

I’ve just settled on the barstool when Claire swoops in. I raise my water glass to catch her eye. She acknowledges me with a curt nod and begins weaving her way through the crowded room. I study her as she maneuvers through the throng. She wouldn’t like it, but I deserve one last long glance. For old time’s sake.

Everything about her exudes authority: her newly-short hair, her almost-purple nails and lipstick, her gray dress and high-heeled shoes. Even her shawl—excuse me, her pashmina—drapes her shoulders with a studied casualness. I’d admired that about her once, loved her for it. Part of me still does.

I stand as she slides up to the bar. We air-kiss like sophisticated Europeans. Tonight, it seems, we’re being polite.

“May I buy you a drink?” I ask. If nothing else, our civil war has taught me to ask rather than assume—even about simple niceties. Her pinched look tells me I’ve stepped on thin ice. “Consider it a going-away present,” I say, offering her my seat too.

She hesitates. Then she nods and slides onto the barstool. “Gin and tonic, please.”

She speaks to me like I’m the help instead of her husband, but I let it slide. I signal the bartender and give him Claire’s order. Moments later, he places a glass in front of her. I wait until she takes a sip. “I never thought you were the sentimental type.”

“I’m not.” Her quizzical expression supports her claim. “Why would you think that?”

I gesture to the room. “This place. You chose it.”

She shrugs. “I chose it because you like it. Consider it my going-away present.”

Before I can respond, the hostess calls Claire’s name. I barely hear her over the din of the bar, but Claire doesn’t miss a syllable. Our table is ready. We snake our way to the foyer and then through the restaurant to a booth along the back wall. Claire starts grumbling before we have a chance to sit down.

She turns to the hostess. “Is this the best table you have?”

The hostess remains almost unnaturally calm. “Yes, ma’am. It’s our only available table. As you can see, we have a full house.”

“This will be fine,” I assure her. To Claire, I say, “We’ll have privacy. We can talk.”

Claire grimaces, and I bite my tongue. Why did she invite me if not to talk?

Silently, we slide into the booth. Once she’s settled, Claire sips her drink and says, “So, talk.”

I blink. My mouth drops open. I quickly close it. “About what?”

She shrugs and picks up a menu. I can’t see it, but I swear she’s smirking. “You can start with why you think I’ve suddenly turned soft.”

 “I never said you were soft. I said you’d turned sentimental.” I tilt her menu down just enough to force her to look at me. “Are you telling me you don’t remember? That you have no recollection of this place?”

She puts down the menu and studies something behind me. Or maybe she’s just pretending. Then she gives me an “Are-you-stupid?” stare. “Of course I remember. I remember you liked the food here. I remember finding it . . . tolerable.”

Tolerable? “I wasn’t talking about the food, Claire.” I point to a table in the middle of the dining room. “We were sitting right there. We’d been dating for two years. You were wearing a blue dress that turned your eyes the color of the ocean on a sunny day. My hand was shaking so badly I dropped the ring in your salad—”

She rolls her eyes. “So you think this is some sort of full-circle thing? Ending our marriage where it started?”

I nod.

“Well, wouldn’t that be ironic. Except this isn’t where you proposed.”

 “Yes, it is.” How could we remember things so differently?

“No, it isn’t. You proposed to me at Bistrot Le Fleur. And my dress was teal, not blue.”

I shake my head. “Not a chance. I can’t even afford Le Bistrot now.”

Claire rolls her shoulders and straightens her posture. “I can.”

Before I can say anything, a waitress materializes at my side.

“Are you ready to order?” she asks. “Or would you like another minute?”

I’m about to ask for that minute when Claire speaks. “I’ll have the scallops and a carafe of your best white.”

I flip open a menu. “I’ll have the chimichurri steak. What do you have on draft?”

The waitress rattles off a list that I only half follow. Why do they have to give beers such crazy names? Finally, she gets to a name I recognize.

“The Guinness,” I say, handing her my menu. The waitress takes Claire’s menu and trots away. I admire the view.

When I turn back to Claire, she’s studying me with frown. My instinct is to ask how I’ve offended. Then I remember she’s not the boss of me anymore. I smile. She shakes her head and rolls her eyes. Again. Has she always done that, or am I finally seeing it? I sneak a peek at my watch. An hour, I decide. I can survive this—her—for another hour.

As if reading my thoughts, Claire whips a thick manila envelope out of her purse, slams it down on the table, and pushes it toward me. I don’t have to ask what it is. It’s the reason we’re here. Still, I hesitate. She may have no trouble shrugging off a dozen years of marriage, but I do.

She slugs back the last of her gin and tonic. She looks at me, then the envelope, then me again.

Message received.

The waitress returns as I’m sliding out the stack of papers. I push them aside and smile at her as she places our drinks and salads on the table. Claire manages an almost friendly “Thank you.”

After the waitress leaves, Claire takes a bite of lettuce and wrinkles her nose. “They could have gone easier on the dressing,” she says. “This salad is practically soup.”

I drop my fork and reach for the divorce papers. It takes me a moment to find my pen. Claire’s lawyer—or his secretary, more likely—has flagged every page that needs my initials or signature. I can’t sign fast enough.

I push the signed papers back into the envelope and hand it back to Claire. I wave over our waitress. “I’m sorry to do this to you. Can I get my steak to go?”

“No problem, sir. Would you like me to box up your salad too?”

“If it’s not too much trouble.”

She takes my plate of greens and disappears. I’ve barely sipped my Guinness when she returns with a fancy brown bag.

“Your dinner, sir,” she says, placing it in front of me. “Can I get you anything else?”

I pull a twenty out of my pocket and give it to her. “No, thank you. This is perfect.”

I slide out of the booth and stand. Smiling, I turn to Claire. “Thank you for dinner. It was everything I expected and more.”

I grab my dinner bag and walk out of the dining room, feeling lighter than I have in years. I don’t look back, but I imagine Claire watching me with her mouth hanging open. I step into the chilly night air with a grin.

 

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